A show

Another sleepless night 

Another one with blood's sight 

Why can't you just get it right? 

Hang the rope, tie the knot, tight 

It'll be over soon 

You'll be a star, by the moon 

After all, you'll get a boon 

You'll pass away, this noon 

No big deal, it's very easy 

Not to do it would be crazy 

When you're hanging, it'll be hazy 

But it's ok, do it, don't be lazy 

Don't you worry, all will be good here 

No person would shed a single tear 

Time would pass by, maybe a year 

Everything would be crystal clear 

They don't care, you'll finally know 

It was all just a damn show 

Now she regrets

How could She have lost herself 

Not this way, it was never to have happened

He wanted to keep her to himself 

Safe and sound not to be saddened 

She didn't want to stay locked 

She left him she left home 

He stood simply shocked 

It was too late to hide under the dome 
he had stopped caring now

Earthquake had arrived, she was shaken 

She was falling apart and finally breaking 

Now what was she to do 

She just lay there turning blue 

Her breath had stopped completely 

Her soul now moved around freely 

But was this really happening?

She was just a lover, now dead 

She had dreamt of this all this while 

Then when she left why did she regret 

The people who didn't care started caring 

The ones without memories started sharing 

She regret what she had done, but too late 

The life she was living wasn't great 

But now it was over, even though he started to care 

It was all over just coz she couldn't bare 

The end

There he was, looking as gorgeous as ever 

Just one look gave me a shiver 

He came close, looked into my eyes

And asked 'where to?', I replied 'to the skies'

Unbelievable it was, he was throne 

At least that is what I had thought 

A while passed, though it had been a nice run 

I wasn't ready for the end, I was just not 

But still it happened against my will

The strength I had to fight was nil 

All hope had left my sight 

I picked up the knife shivering in freight 

Sliced a bit, let blood pass through 

Slowly I lost consciousness too 

And that is how the story finally ends 

Not with enemies neither with friends 

Started, now will end soon

It started with a little scratch 

Ended up as big red patch 

I bled day and night 

Never thought I would see this sight 

But now I wonder how to remove it 

How did this depression hit 

These suicidal thoughts that flow my way 

How do I put them aside, far away 

He was the one to always take care 

But now it's my turn, life isn't fair 

He left and I have reached this state 

Up until now it was everything but hate 

But now hate is in me, not for him 

But just for me, for all of my whim 

How did I reach this place in life 

How did I end up in this strife

The answers are not known to me 

All I know is that hate consumes me 

And the end it very near 

No more with a cover that is sheer 

December dream

Someday I will realise what it was 

Someday you will know your loss 

I don't know what we were 

But I loved you, I swear 

I'm hurting I know, doesn't matter 

I still hear your name and shatter 

But do you care? Would you ever?

Would you ever smile at me? Never 

I die daily just thinking about you 

But you are happy there without a clue 

Someday will come, at least I hope

When you will know why I broke 

I wish for you to know I love you 

Yes that's my December dream, you 

Just that you know what you're worth 

What you've meant to me since our birth 

Joyous tears

Does such a thing happen?

I never believed so

Now my cheeks have dampened 

And I have that glow 

As tears of joy stride down 

I wonder how this happening took place 

I laugh while crying like a clown 

This is what you've done, given grace 

I didn't know one could cry and smile

I cry because I'm fragile 

This is my first time with a grin 

It's all because you talked to me 

I've a hard exterior but I'm sensitive within 

By means of the simple words I've got glee 

What have you done to me? 

I cried for happiness, it isn't like me 

You've made me crazy

My heart beats faster when I think of you 

I start to get weak in the knees

The memories of you and me gush in 

The world starts to get hazy 

I've lost the means to get your love 

But the fact that you just speak 

Or maybe just write to me,

It sets me on a flight to cloud nine 

It makes me shine 

The dream catcher

The sad dreams, the scary nightmares 

They came one after the other in layers 

Scared and unhappy I stayed for years and years 

Thought that I will just get used to the tears 

But that wasn't god's plan for me 

God had sent a dreamcatcher, it was he 

He came, he conquered all of my heart and soul 

He filled up that empty hole 

Somehow he managed to stop the dreams 

No more did the tears shed to extremes 

He made happiness engulf me,

Made me fall in love with he 

But that wasn't god's plan as well 

I was all over again made to dwell 

This time I knew, dreamcatchers won't help 

Because this time it was the dreamcatcher's fault itself 

No four leaved clover

Love faith hope trust peace 

Words that are just a tease 

You think, think and then over think 

It's not worth as it fades away in a blink 

We were meant to be forever 

But we parted, thought that would happen never 

How I still don't know 

But you've got it stuck in me, the show 

It's on replay in my mind 

You were my best find 

You are stuck inside 

From you, how am I to hide? 

It hurts so much, hope is what has me alive 

But how could I be so naive? 

Hope is just a word, it's false 

It's something one dreams that will solve the brawls 

It isn't that easy, you've got to trust 

What did I just say? That's not just 

Trust is a lie, no such thing 

You have trust? You'll be crying 

Why do this to yourself 

Get yourself down from the shelf 

You aren't for show.

You deserve to know 

You are hated in this world 

In the blanket, stay curled 

You have to hear more dear 

There is a lot for you to fear 

It's time for death to take over 

There is no such thing as a four leaved clover

Someday, dead

Someday soon you will find the darkness you require 

Someday soon you will reach a level from where you can't go any higher 

You will soon see the end of your life

That day you'd be lying on the floor with a knife 

There'd be a pool of blood,you'd lay in that 

No one would care,no one would ask where you at 

It would be a joyous day, everyone would be smiling.

They wouldn't care if you're dead or alive, there will be a little fake crying.

You know that you're just a huge burden 

You're no more than an acquaintance hon.

The sooner you die the better it would be for the world 

Just go already, just go now,don't wait... You'll ruin something else

I miss him

So far away I stand

Amidst no enemy no friend 

Alone I am, I know it well,

Feeling lonely and dwell 

Gloom is what surrounds me 

Still on my mind is only he

So many problems I ignore 

But thoughts of him start a war 

I can't get through this 

It's him I miss 

It's torture for me now 

Getting past him is possible how 

I feel as if I have reached the end 

There is nothing I can mend

Maybe it is actually over 

Yet I think maybe that can happen never  

Stood strong for a little too long

Stood strong for a long time 

But now with gloom I again climb

Have to start from the beginning 

Without falling or even trembling 

I relapsed, it happened again 

How could I let the blood drain?

It just happened, how I don't know 

In the dark the blade just glow 

Seeing it, felt so inviting 

The urge is what I kept fighting 

Finally I had to give in 

I finally, again had committed a sin

As the blood gushed out of my skin

I felt that he had had his win 

But still after this loss, again

I go back trying to regain 

Regain what I lost long ago 

Regain what might make me low 

I reminisce those times, still 

I feel it all that I had felt with thrill 

I relapsed and now I have to start 

Start again this time without breaking my heart

Proud

She is proud of herself  She can't tell you why 

You will judge, not because she is shy 

It's been a while since she held a blade

It's been a while since she has seen the blood red shade

She is proud, she has the right to be 

She smiles now, but still she isn't free

She isn't free from the thoughts that haunt her 

She isn't free from the tears that taunt her 

She is proud, yes she finally is 

But still inside confused and overwhelmed she is 

She could just keep smiling and pretending 

But that's like rules are bending 

It is not nice to fake for so long 

It's those thoughts that make it all so wrong 

The thoughts that she can't get out of her head 

The thoughts with which she goes to bed 

She is alright on the outside 

But inside she is just finding a place to hide 

She is proud, she has every right to be 

But even today she isn't free

Real beauty

Looking at herself in the mirror with a smile 

She poses and passes away a while 

Then it starts Her smile slowly fades away

As each peace of article is thrown away

As she strips down she starts feeling bad

Looking at her body, she starts to feel sad

She sees the scars, sees the fat

She thinks if she could cover her face with a hat 

She is embarrassed, yes she is 

She is suicidal but still wants to be his 

She knows she isn't worth anything to him 

She still wants to cater to all of his whim 

She is a tough girl we all should know 

Its just taking time for her to grow 

It'll take time but soon she'll realize 

That the real beauty lies inside

and she was lost

He left her there
taking her dreams
her hopes and aspirations
i know that was mean

she did not say a thing
she was too shocked for that
her heart couldnt even stop him
coz it was still suffering

where did it go wrong
what did she do
why did he leave her in the middle of nowhere
was her sin so strong

she gave it all she could
her mind,her body,her heart,her soul
she practically wrote her life to him
and hence now alone she stood

also she bears it all alone
the pain and the torture of being left
now that he is not with her anymore
one cannot find the traces of happiness in her tone

her laughter that flowed like a river
whose presence was enough to fill up the room
now squats in a corner as an anonymous identity
and is startled by a sudden shiver

the bold,the beautiful,the hale,the hearty
the words fail to relate to her anymore
gloom,despair and endless doom
she has lost all the faith in any pact or treaty

she is now as good as a ghost
as she is now described as the shadow of the man
coz her soul taken away by a storm
and it was the aftermath of the tempest,that she was lost

message to you

True you lost out on your dream guy

But have you ever wondered

If he was worth more than the smile on your face

Or if he was worth more than the happiness you would feel

When you were just being you……..

True he made you feel as if

You were on seventh heaven when with him

He made the world a beautiful place for you

But why do you ignore the fact

That the world that he made beautiful

Was visible to you and as ever beautiful

Before he came to your life

The reason it didn’t seem beautiful

Was you were simply too ignorant to realize it…..

True he made you realize yourself

He made you to believe in you

With him you knew you existed

But that also means your persona has existed since before

He was just the medium to bring it to light…..

I don’t say that he wasn’t important to you

What I say that you are important to yourself

I don’t hate you for being mad for him

What I wanna remind you is your madness about yourself

I truly love you for what you were

And hence want you to find yourself all over again

had to go

In this misery I've learnt to subside 
Not having you by my side
It has taught me quite a bit
Even if you were the perfect fit
You had to go, you had to give pain
You had to make me feel disdain
You have left me here in sorrow
Now my heart feels hollow
How much are you going to make me suffer
I hope when this is over I am tougher
I know I am forlorn
I know I am forever torn
But still I hope I am stitched up soon
And life again starts to feel like a boon

forever kind of love

You, my forever kind of love
Everything comes later, you're above
You're the one I trust without doubt
Only one I truly care about
You've given me so many miraculous times
Why am I supposed to end them with sad rhymes
Is it necessary for me to feel this misery
I try not to, but I feel really paltry
Despondent is how I feel daily
You've left me in a state of melancholy 
You say I can change it all
But its tough, I try and get up but then I fall
It keeps happening over and over again
I wanna stop, how do I refrain? 
You could have done a lot, changed it all
I wouldn't have had to do the crawl
Its important now, just please understand
The gesture I need doesn't have to be grand

don't go away

Don't go away
There may be no point 
But don't just sway
Our souls are joint 
Its not only me
Its not only you 
I can't set you free
Coz its us two
Don't go away
My heart will stop
Don't just sway
You will make me drop
Why is this happening
You are going so fast
My cheeks are dampening
This was meant to last
Don't go away
I beg you now, please
Don't just sway
I'll keep you at ease
I need you here with me
I need to keep you happy
I'm on my knee
You are making me sappy
Don't go away
Don't just sway
I beg you to stay
For me you're the sun's ray 
Nothing can happen 
Not without you 

crushed me

Is there any reason I'm still stuck on you? Why am I here, this without any clue You've changed me completely You've made me fall drastically I fell, you caught me mid way But after a while on the ground I lay I was crushed, is there anymore to it? I gave you my heart and you stomped on it Is there anything else for you to say? Explanations to that heartbeat in May? You proved to me that love doesn't last You proved it that what matters is the past You said you'd never let me go And I just went along the amazing flow I shouldn't have done what I did But you forgave me, you put a lid Then what sense does it make to leave like this How can you just stop loving, how can you diss No more does this world make sense You made tears fall that are so dense If you wanted to crush me, should've told me I wouldn't have been with you so closely But now its too late, you've done the harm You have broken in and set off the alarm Though my heart still beats for you It wants to hate you too You can't mend what is done now But start loving me again somehow?

promises

Promises, they are meant to be broken After that, its not meant to be spoken All promises break, then they hurt this makes the system to stop being alert Every promise you made, you broke You disappeared in the end like smoke You did it all even after begging me not to You made me believe its just us two You said its a forever kind of thing little did I know you meant its a fling The words you spoke, they swooped me You said "the one I love is she" You didn't mean it, you should've told me Before you left, went across the sea You told me not to ever give up I obeyed like a little pup I shouldn't have, now I know For you it was an entertaining show You broke them, every single one And then you said "I'm over you hon" I don't understand how you did it Amazing acting, I have to admit. Now I am stuck here, for maybe ever In this world where I'm not so clever I don't understand anything, this place was ours How do I stay here alone under the stars? How do you expect me to understand the lies How do you expect me to stop the cries