forever kind of love

You, my forever kind of love
Everything comes later, you're above
You're the one I trust without doubt
Only one I truly care about
You've given me so many miraculous times
Why am I supposed to end them with sad rhymes
Is it necessary for me to feel this misery
I try not to, but I feel really paltry
Despondent is how I feel daily
You've left me in a state of melancholy 
You say I can change it all
But its tough, I try and get up but then I fall
It keeps happening over and over again
I wanna stop, how do I refrain? 
You could have done a lot, changed it all
I wouldn't have had to do the crawl
Its important now, just please understand
The gesture I need doesn't have to be grand

don't go away

Don't go away
There may be no point 
But don't just sway
Our souls are joint 
Its not only me
Its not only you 
I can't set you free
Coz its us two
Don't go away
My heart will stop
Don't just sway
You will make me drop
Why is this happening
You are going so fast
My cheeks are dampening
This was meant to last
Don't go away
I beg you now, please
Don't just sway
I'll keep you at ease
I need you here with me
I need to keep you happy
I'm on my knee
You are making me sappy
Don't go away
Don't just sway
I beg you to stay
For me you're the sun's ray 
Nothing can happen 
Not without you 

crushed me

Is there any reason I'm still stuck on you? Why am I here, this without any clue You've changed me completely You've made me fall drastically I fell, you caught me mid way But after a while on the ground I lay I was crushed, is there anymore to it? I gave you my heart and you stomped on it Is there anything else for you to say? Explanations to that heartbeat in May? You proved to me that love doesn't last You proved it that what matters is the past You said you'd never let me go And I just went along the amazing flow I shouldn't have done what I did But you forgave me, you put a lid Then what sense does it make to leave like this How can you just stop loving, how can you diss No more does this world make sense You made tears fall that are so dense If you wanted to crush me, should've told me I wouldn't have been with you so closely But now its too late, you've done the harm You have broken in and set off the alarm Though my heart still beats for you It wants to hate you too You can't mend what is done now But start loving me again somehow?

promises

Promises, they are meant to be broken After that, its not meant to be spoken All promises break, then they hurt this makes the system to stop being alert Every promise you made, you broke You disappeared in the end like smoke You did it all even after begging me not to You made me believe its just us two You said its a forever kind of thing little did I know you meant its a fling The words you spoke, they swooped me You said "the one I love is she" You didn't mean it, you should've told me Before you left, went across the sea You told me not to ever give up I obeyed like a little pup I shouldn't have, now I know For you it was an entertaining show You broke them, every single one And then you said "I'm over you hon" I don't understand how you did it Amazing acting, I have to admit. Now I am stuck here, for maybe ever In this world where I'm not so clever I don't understand anything, this place was ours How do I stay here alone under the stars? How do you expect me to understand the lies How do you expect me to stop the cries

she is shattered

She is a lover, he can't take that away

She is emotional, she's born that way 

When she fell for him, he knew 

He knew it was hard but the love grew 

It grew to such an extent that she went crazy 

And when he left all she felt was hazy 

She was completely shattered 

Nothing to her mattered 

She didn't feel pain so she did it 

She abused herself and didn't quit it

She bled and bled but no pain came along 

It only came when came that one sad song 

She was completely shattered 

Nothing to her mattered 

She let herself loose 

Let herself choose 

She started choosing bad 

Her life was just too sad 

Fake acts till sun down 

Then she wore the sadness crown 

She was completely shattered 

Nothing to her mattered 

She lost all hope, she thought of letting go 

It just happens that life doesn't go with the flow 

She tried hard, just so very hard 

But for others her heart was barred 

No one could enter her messed up head

No one knew to which direction she led 

She was completely shattered 

Nothing to her mattered 

she wanted to blame someone 

Except the one responsible, anyone 

She couldn't do it anymore now 

She just took a breathe and then a bow 

She made her decision to sleep forever 

So that the one she loves would be bothered never 

It was meant to be over right then 

But life took away the pen 

She couldn't write her own story 

Fate wouldn't allow her to get glory 

She wanted to stop it all but couldn't 

She could've died but she wouldn't 

She couldn't let him feel guilty for life 

She'd rather put down that knife 

She suffered and put up another act 

She was still broken, that's a fact 

She lives now, yet she dies daily 

She lives now but just so frailly

ready to change

Its time for the last good bye There is time before I stop the cry It hurts to see you leave this way I can only wait night and day You go now, you go forever All I can feel is this weird tremor Why did it have to happen like this? Why couldn't you give a good bye kiss? Is it necessary for you to leave me alone? Do you have to make me feel thrown? I ask you this one last time, Giving a second chance wouldn't be a crime I promise I wouldn't let you regret it I don't want to feel down in a pit I've learnt from my past mistakes I know a lot of time it takes But I know I am ready right now If you coming back is possible anyhow I will make it perfect this time No more will there be a sad rhyme I would cherish life, I would cherish you I would be, for you, completely new give me this last chance, I beg now I'm sitting on my knees after taking a bow I ask you now, I ask you at last Will you be with me and forget the past?

I hate him

I hate him, I hate him so much 

I hate how I feel because of his touch

I hate how he talks

I hate the way he walks

I hate how he makes me smile 

I hate how he makes me wanna travel miles 

I hate how he looks so amazing 

I hate how he increases my craving 

I hate it when he is sweet 

I hate it when he offers me a seat

I hate it how he is always so calm

I hate how he stops me from self harm 

I hate him so much, I hate all of him

I hate how he used to cater to all my whim 

I hate him, there is nothing more to it

Then why does he make me happy every little bit?