The end

There he was, looking as gorgeous as ever 

Just one look gave me a shiver 

He came close, looked into my eyes

And asked 'where to?', I replied 'to the skies'

Unbelievable it was, he was throne 

At least that is what I had thought 

A while passed, though it had been a nice run 

I wasn't ready for the end, I was just not 

But still it happened against my will

The strength I had to fight was nil 

All hope had left my sight 

I picked up the knife shivering in freight 

Sliced a bit, let blood pass through 

Slowly I lost consciousness too 

And that is how the story finally ends 

Not with enemies neither with friends 

Started, now will end soon

It started with a little scratch 

Ended up as big red patch 

I bled day and night 

Never thought I would see this sight 

But now I wonder how to remove it 

How did this depression hit 

These suicidal thoughts that flow my way 

How do I put them aside, far away 

He was the one to always take care 

But now it's my turn, life isn't fair 

He left and I have reached this state 

Up until now it was everything but hate 

But now hate is in me, not for him 

But just for me, for all of my whim 

How did I reach this place in life 

How did I end up in this strife

The answers are not known to me 

All I know is that hate consumes me 

And the end it very near 

No more with a cover that is sheer 

December dream

Someday I will realise what it was 

Someday you will know your loss 

I don't know what we were 

But I loved you, I swear 

I'm hurting I know, doesn't matter 

I still hear your name and shatter 

But do you care? Would you ever?

Would you ever smile at me? Never 

I die daily just thinking about you 

But you are happy there without a clue 

Someday will come, at least I hope

When you will know why I broke 

I wish for you to know I love you 

Yes that's my December dream, you 

Just that you know what you're worth 

What you've meant to me since our birth 

Joyous tears

Does such a thing happen?

I never believed so

Now my cheeks have dampened 

And I have that glow 

As tears of joy stride down 

I wonder how this happening took place 

I laugh while crying like a clown 

This is what you've done, given grace 

I didn't know one could cry and smile

I cry because I'm fragile 

This is my first time with a grin 

It's all because you talked to me 

I've a hard exterior but I'm sensitive within 

By means of the simple words I've got glee 

What have you done to me? 

I cried for happiness, it isn't like me 

You've made me crazy

My heart beats faster when I think of you 

I start to get weak in the knees

The memories of you and me gush in 

The world starts to get hazy 

I've lost the means to get your love 

But the fact that you just speak 

Or maybe just write to me,

It sets me on a flight to cloud nine 

It makes me shine 

The dream catcher

The sad dreams, the scary nightmares 

They came one after the other in layers 

Scared and unhappy I stayed for years and years 

Thought that I will just get used to the tears 

But that wasn't god's plan for me 

God had sent a dreamcatcher, it was he 

He came, he conquered all of my heart and soul 

He filled up that empty hole 

Somehow he managed to stop the dreams 

No more did the tears shed to extremes 

He made happiness engulf me,

Made me fall in love with he 

But that wasn't god's plan as well 

I was all over again made to dwell 

This time I knew, dreamcatchers won't help 

Because this time it was the dreamcatcher's fault itself 

No four leaved clover

Love faith hope trust peace 

Words that are just a tease 

You think, think and then over think 

It's not worth as it fades away in a blink 

We were meant to be forever 

But we parted, thought that would happen never 

How I still don't know 

But you've got it stuck in me, the show 

It's on replay in my mind 

You were my best find 

You are stuck inside 

From you, how am I to hide? 

It hurts so much, hope is what has me alive 

But how could I be so naive? 

Hope is just a word, it's false 

It's something one dreams that will solve the brawls 

It isn't that easy, you've got to trust 

What did I just say? That's not just 

Trust is a lie, no such thing 

You have trust? You'll be crying 

Why do this to yourself 

Get yourself down from the shelf 

You aren't for show.

You deserve to know 

You are hated in this world 

In the blanket, stay curled 

You have to hear more dear 

There is a lot for you to fear 

It's time for death to take over 

There is no such thing as a four leaved clover

Someday, dead

Someday soon you will find the darkness you require 

Someday soon you will reach a level from where you can't go any higher 

You will soon see the end of your life

That day you'd be lying on the floor with a knife 

There'd be a pool of blood,you'd lay in that 

No one would care,no one would ask where you at 

It would be a joyous day, everyone would be smiling.

They wouldn't care if you're dead or alive, there will be a little fake crying.

You know that you're just a huge burden 

You're no more than an acquaintance hon.

The sooner you die the better it would be for the world 

Just go already, just go now,don't wait... You'll ruin something else