Stood strong for a little too long

Stood strong for a long time 

But now with gloom I again climb

Have to start from the beginning 

Without falling or even trembling 

I relapsed, it happened again 

How could I let the blood drain?

It just happened, how I don't know 

In the dark the blade just glow 

Seeing it, felt so inviting 

The urge is what I kept fighting 

Finally I had to give in 

I finally, again had committed a sin

As the blood gushed out of my skin

I felt that he had had his win 

But still after this loss, again

I go back trying to regain 

Regain what I lost long ago 

Regain what might make me low 

I reminisce those times, still 

I feel it all that I had felt with thrill 

I relapsed and now I have to start 

Start again this time without breaking my heart

Proud

She is proud of herself  She can't tell you why 

You will judge, not because she is shy 

It's been a while since she held a blade

It's been a while since she has seen the blood red shade

She is proud, she has the right to be 

She smiles now, but still she isn't free

She isn't free from the thoughts that haunt her 

She isn't free from the tears that taunt her 

She is proud, yes she finally is 

But still inside confused and overwhelmed she is 

She could just keep smiling and pretending 

But that's like rules are bending 

It is not nice to fake for so long 

It's those thoughts that make it all so wrong 

The thoughts that she can't get out of her head 

The thoughts with which she goes to bed 

She is alright on the outside 

But inside she is just finding a place to hide 

She is proud, she has every right to be 

But even today she isn't free

Real beauty

Looking at herself in the mirror with a smile 

She poses and passes away a while 

Then it starts Her smile slowly fades away

As each peace of article is thrown away

As she strips down she starts feeling bad

Looking at her body, she starts to feel sad

She sees the scars, sees the fat

She thinks if she could cover her face with a hat 

She is embarrassed, yes she is 

She is suicidal but still wants to be his 

She knows she isn't worth anything to him 

She still wants to cater to all of his whim 

She is a tough girl we all should know 

Its just taking time for her to grow 

It'll take time but soon she'll realize 

That the real beauty lies inside

and she was lost

He left her there
taking her dreams
her hopes and aspirations
i know that was mean

she did not say a thing
she was too shocked for that
her heart couldnt even stop him
coz it was still suffering

where did it go wrong
what did she do
why did he leave her in the middle of nowhere
was her sin so strong

she gave it all she could
her mind,her body,her heart,her soul
she practically wrote her life to him
and hence now alone she stood

also she bears it all alone
the pain and the torture of being left
now that he is not with her anymore
one cannot find the traces of happiness in her tone

her laughter that flowed like a river
whose presence was enough to fill up the room
now squats in a corner as an anonymous identity
and is startled by a sudden shiver

the bold,the beautiful,the hale,the hearty
the words fail to relate to her anymore
gloom,despair and endless doom
she has lost all the faith in any pact or treaty

she is now as good as a ghost
as she is now described as the shadow of the man
coz her soul taken away by a storm
and it was the aftermath of the tempest,that she was lost

message to you

True you lost out on your dream guy

But have you ever wondered

If he was worth more than the smile on your face

Or if he was worth more than the happiness you would feel

When you were just being you……..

True he made you feel as if

You were on seventh heaven when with him

He made the world a beautiful place for you

But why do you ignore the fact

That the world that he made beautiful

Was visible to you and as ever beautiful

Before he came to your life

The reason it didn’t seem beautiful

Was you were simply too ignorant to realize it…..

True he made you realize yourself

He made you to believe in you

With him you knew you existed

But that also means your persona has existed since before

He was just the medium to bring it to light…..

I don’t say that he wasn’t important to you

What I say that you are important to yourself

I don’t hate you for being mad for him

What I wanna remind you is your madness about yourself

I truly love you for what you were

And hence want you to find yourself all over again

had to go

In this misery I've learnt to subside 
Not having you by my side
It has taught me quite a bit
Even if you were the perfect fit
You had to go, you had to give pain
You had to make me feel disdain
You have left me here in sorrow
Now my heart feels hollow
How much are you going to make me suffer
I hope when this is over I am tougher
I know I am forlorn
I know I am forever torn
But still I hope I am stitched up soon
And life again starts to feel like a boon

forever kind of love

You, my forever kind of love
Everything comes later, you're above
You're the one I trust without doubt
Only one I truly care about
You've given me so many miraculous times
Why am I supposed to end them with sad rhymes
Is it necessary for me to feel this misery
I try not to, but I feel really paltry
Despondent is how I feel daily
You've left me in a state of melancholy 
You say I can change it all
But its tough, I try and get up but then I fall
It keeps happening over and over again
I wanna stop, how do I refrain? 
You could have done a lot, changed it all
I wouldn't have had to do the crawl
Its important now, just please understand
The gesture I need doesn't have to be grand