December dream

Someday I will realise what it was 

Someday you will know your loss 

I don't know what we were 

But I loved you, I swear 

I'm hurting I know, doesn't matter 

I still hear your name and shatter 

But do you care? Would you ever?

Would you ever smile at me? Never 

I die daily just thinking about you 

But you are happy there without a clue 

Someday will come, at least I hope

When you will know why I broke 

I wish for you to know I love you 

Yes that's my December dream, you 

Just that you know what you're worth 

What you've meant to me since our birth 

Joyous tears

Does such a thing happen?

I never believed so

Now my cheeks have dampened 

And I have that glow 

As tears of joy stride down 

I wonder how this happening took place 

I laugh while crying like a clown 

This is what you've done, given grace 

I didn't know one could cry and smile

I cry because I'm fragile 

This is my first time with a grin 

It's all because you talked to me 

I've a hard exterior but I'm sensitive within 

By means of the simple words I've got glee 

What have you done to me? 

I cried for happiness, it isn't like me 

You've made me crazy

My heart beats faster when I think of you 

I start to get weak in the knees

The memories of you and me gush in 

The world starts to get hazy 

I've lost the means to get your love 

But the fact that you just speak 

Or maybe just write to me,

It sets me on a flight to cloud nine 

It makes me shine 

The dream catcher

The sad dreams, the scary nightmares 

They came one after the other in layers 

Scared and unhappy I stayed for years and years 

Thought that I will just get used to the tears 

But that wasn't god's plan for me 

God had sent a dreamcatcher, it was he 

He came, he conquered all of my heart and soul 

He filled up that empty hole 

Somehow he managed to stop the dreams 

No more did the tears shed to extremes 

He made happiness engulf me,

Made me fall in love with he 

But that wasn't god's plan as well 

I was all over again made to dwell 

This time I knew, dreamcatchers won't help 

Because this time it was the dreamcatcher's fault itself 

No four leaved clover

Love faith hope trust peace 

Words that are just a tease 

You think, think and then over think 

It's not worth as it fades away in a blink 

We were meant to be forever 

But we parted, thought that would happen never 

How I still don't know 

But you've got it stuck in me, the show 

It's on replay in my mind 

You were my best find 

You are stuck inside 

From you, how am I to hide? 

It hurts so much, hope is what has me alive 

But how could I be so naive? 

Hope is just a word, it's false 

It's something one dreams that will solve the brawls 

It isn't that easy, you've got to trust 

What did I just say? That's not just 

Trust is a lie, no such thing 

You have trust? You'll be crying 

Why do this to yourself 

Get yourself down from the shelf 

You aren't for show.

You deserve to know 

You are hated in this world 

In the blanket, stay curled 

You have to hear more dear 

There is a lot for you to fear 

It's time for death to take over 

There is no such thing as a four leaved clover

Someday, dead

Someday soon you will find the darkness you require 

Someday soon you will reach a level from where you can't go any higher 

You will soon see the end of your life

That day you'd be lying on the floor with a knife 

There'd be a pool of blood,you'd lay in that 

No one would care,no one would ask where you at 

It would be a joyous day, everyone would be smiling.

They wouldn't care if you're dead or alive, there will be a little fake crying.

You know that you're just a huge burden 

You're no more than an acquaintance hon.

The sooner you die the better it would be for the world 

Just go already, just go now,don't wait... You'll ruin something else

I miss him

So far away I stand

Amidst no enemy no friend 

Alone I am, I know it well,

Feeling lonely and dwell 

Gloom is what surrounds me 

Still on my mind is only he

So many problems I ignore 

But thoughts of him start a war 

I can't get through this 

It's him I miss 

It's torture for me now 

Getting past him is possible how 

I feel as if I have reached the end 

There is nothing I can mend

Maybe it is actually over 

Yet I think maybe that can happen never  

Stood strong for a little too long

Stood strong for a long time 

But now with gloom I again climb

Have to start from the beginning 

Without falling or even trembling 

I relapsed, it happened again 

How could I let the blood drain?

It just happened, how I don't know 

In the dark the blade just glow 

Seeing it, felt so inviting 

The urge is what I kept fighting 

Finally I had to give in 

I finally, again had committed a sin

As the blood gushed out of my skin

I felt that he had had his win 

But still after this loss, again

I go back trying to regain 

Regain what I lost long ago 

Regain what might make me low 

I reminisce those times, still 

I feel it all that I had felt with thrill 

I relapsed and now I have to start 

Start again this time without breaking my heart