forever kind of love

You, my forever kind of love
Everything comes later, you're above
You're the one I trust without doubt
Only one I truly care about
You've given me so many miraculous times
Why am I supposed to end them with sad rhymes
Is it necessary for me to feel this misery
I try not to, but I feel really paltry
Despondent is how I feel daily
You've left me in a state of melancholy 
You say I can change it all
But its tough, I try and get up but then I fall
It keeps happening over and over again
I wanna stop, how do I refrain? 
You could have done a lot, changed it all
I wouldn't have had to do the crawl
Its important now, just please understand
The gesture I need doesn't have to be grand