I hate him

I hate him, I hate him so much 

I hate how I feel because of his touch

I hate how he talks

I hate the way he walks

I hate how he makes me smile 

I hate how he makes me wanna travel miles 

I hate how he looks so amazing 

I hate how he increases my craving 

I hate it when he is sweet 

I hate it when he offers me a seat

I hate it how he is always so calm

I hate how he stops me from self harm 

I hate him so much, I hate all of him

I hate how he used to cater to all my whim 

I hate him, there is nothing more to it

Then why does he make me happy every little bit?