had to go

In this misery I've learnt to subside 
Not having you by my side
It has taught me quite a bit
Even if you were the perfect fit
You had to go, you had to give pain
You had to make me feel disdain
You have left me here in sorrow
Now my heart feels hollow
How much are you going to make me suffer
I hope when this is over I am tougher
I know I am forlorn
I know I am forever torn
But still I hope I am stitched up soon
And life again starts to feel like a boon