Proud

She is proud of herself  She can't tell you why 

You will judge, not because she is shy 

It's been a while since she held a blade

It's been a while since she has seen the blood red shade

She is proud, she has the right to be 

She smiles now, but still she isn't free

She isn't free from the thoughts that haunt her 

She isn't free from the tears that taunt her 

She is proud, yes she finally is 

But still inside confused and overwhelmed she is 

She could just keep smiling and pretending 

But that's like rules are bending 

It is not nice to fake for so long 

It's those thoughts that make it all so wrong 

The thoughts that she can't get out of her head 

The thoughts with which she goes to bed 

She is alright on the outside 

But inside she is just finding a place to hide 

She is proud, she has every right to be 

But even today she isn't free